tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-65448133238347972682024-02-20T18:14:49.020-08:00Anya cares4uIn spite of anxietyUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger127125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6544813323834797268.post-36652384814256776142015-10-01T04:32:00.001-07:002015-10-01T04:34:51.494-07:00In spite of anxiety | My trip to the US this year (Part II)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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So the trip to Los Angeles was not stressful at all in spite of my mild anxiety. I am always confused when they say: "Enjoy your trip", but this time I actually managed to enjoy it o_O The view from the plane was absolutely stunning and I loved every single bit of it. </div>
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Manhattan Beach is one of the best places I have ever been so far. I can't express my gratitude for this view of the ocean, but I was certainly the happiest person on the planet when I saw it. Am not even joking. I can call it the best moment from the whole trip, to be honest. </div>
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Thanks for sticking with me, and, remember, you can enjoy life, in spite of anxiety!<br />
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Walking in Houston, TX, with my family. Downtown. I love the buildings, we don't have anything like this here, in Saint-Petersburg. </div>
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I can get anxious because I want to take as many pictures as possible, for example, or see places, etc. It gets exhausting over some period of time, but these walks are absolutely worth it. They also help to feel more relaxed next time, when you get used to such rythm. In spite of how I feel I can make myself smile, try it, it helps to feel better :)<br />
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This is another day (probably my last one in the US). We went to the sea food restaurant. The food was not the healthiest but, well, the view was absolutely stunning. I love those wonderful night city views.<br />
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Thanks for sticking with me, and, remember, you can do many things in spite of anxiety! </div>
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It has been a while since my last blog post, but, well, I am still here, just not always know what to write about. Although it's been so much I'd love to share with you. My "Way to Transformation" plan has been totally changed, and my life moved in a totally wrong direction, which happens when you want all things planned - never worked out for me... </div>
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Trying to understand other people, listen, accept and find myself in all that jazz, I found myself absolutely lost. I got lost in the ideas, in my own thoughts (I don't think as much as I used to anymore though). I found myself completely changed, like listening to others and caring took my anxiety and depression away, but also there is also an empty space in my heart, I have no idea where it came from. </div>
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I guess, it happens when you try to change yourself completely, when you seem to understand way too much, and you undrestand, that there is not other way for you but CHANGE. I made this decision long ago, but starting to experience the results only now... I don't know if I make sense right now, but I believe for someone I probably do...</div>
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If I can I'll blog about my trip to the US this summer, and share this unbelievable experience with you.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6544813323834797268.post-47407812555944886532015-06-05T10:29:00.000-07:002015-06-05T10:31:30.903-07:00Not mental health favorites (May 2015)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Hey, guys, since I've just had my vacation and took a lot of pictures, I'd like to share with you some of my favorite make-up products in the month of May, that I used for creating pretty much the same look all over again:) So there you go.</div>
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Face make-up is my favorite thing to do for some reason and I often like to try new products. Currently I've been loving Tea Tree Flawless BB Cream (02), works perfectly for my combination skin and doesn't break me out at all. I don't use it every day, but it is really good for summer. I'd say it's a medium coverage.</div>
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I really love bronzers. I've been using Bronze Goddess from Estee Lauder (03 Medium Deep). It's very easy to apply and doesn't make me more oily than I already am:)</div>
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Highlighter does look good on some pictures, it gives my face that glow, I personally adore (using MAC Soft&Gentle Mineralize Skinfinish).</div>
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Oh, and I am absolutely crazy for the blush!:) I'm mixing two: Clinique (blushing blush, 120) and MAC Dame Satin. I have to mix them since I think that MAC is not pigmented enough. </div>
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I have very oily eyelids, but I forget about it every time I am using Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion:)</div>
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Speaking about my favorite lipgloss for summer I absolutely adore Rouge Dior Brillant (359). It makes my lips very soft, and also the color is gorgeous. </div>
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I also love combination of two lipsticks: MAC Pink Plaid and Brave. I mix them with the MAC Soar lip pencil or Hip 'N" Happy. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6544813323834797268.post-6657575548196033032015-05-17T12:27:00.000-07:002015-05-17T12:27:48.248-07:00WTTD - You are in charge of you own happiness<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I am excited to share this post with you, because I do really like to share the positive changes that have been happening in my life (my mental health) since I started to work on myself. </div>
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While filming for my new Q&A video today I realized how happy I was to actually walk alone, enjoy the beauty of my city and take pictures. It made me genuinely smile, cos I can now do what I preach! </div>
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I've been talking about walking alone for ages, but it never made me as comfortable as I felt today! I was thinking about the message I have an opportunity to share with you, guys. And if I could only express in words how much I do appreciate it! </div>
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Love is something I believe in with all my heart, no matter how often I was disappointed or hurt, all what matters at the end of the day is I come back to my main belief - Love is the Truth. I've changed through all these years, but I managed to keep the core of my nature - to love and to care. Makes me very happy to realize the fact that only I am responsible for my happiness right now, and I am doing my best to use this gift for the best of my ability. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6544813323834797268.post-18844892016406421902015-05-07T00:56:00.000-07:002015-05-07T06:33:07.741-07:00Not mental health favorites (April 2015)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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So, I guess it's time for my "not mental health favorites" for the month of april. </div>
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I really do enjoy to try out different scents, but there is no doubt for me that I always prefer kindda the same scented perfumes. It just has to be a little citrusy and fresh. Roberto Cavalli "Paradiso" is one of my current favorites. I was using it for the whole month of april and looking forward for more months to come:) It's totally appropriate for spring, in my opinion, and, again, scents I love are some sort of therapeutic for me. And, come on, let's just a moment to look at this bottle! Ain't it gorgeous?!?</div>
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I still keep on going with my "Way To Transformation" blog, just stopped counting the days:) The reason for it is obvious: I do not blog or make videos every day, which makes it harder to count:) I still could, but since my last post from this series was like 2 months ago, it seems to be pointless.</div>
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Nevertheless, I would like to share my experience with self-talk as it deffinitely will play a huge role in my transformation and I can already sense that. </div>
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I think self-talk never really worked for me because to see it work, in my opinion, I should trust myself, believe my own words. Many people who struggle with mental health issues have low self-esteem. I am not an exception. I always had lack of confidence due to my past experiences. So to feel my self-worth I needed others' approval of everything I was doing. And when I didn't get it, I started to feel extremely anxious and empty inside. When I received it, it filled the hole in my heart for a while, that I could never fill in myself. </div>
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Not long ago I got very anxious, to the point where it's: do something or give up... So I started to talk to myself in my head, saying that everything is going to be fine, that I am good enough, etc. I tried to speak (think) really fast: thought by thought, so there was no room for negativity. When there was one negative thought popping up, I repeated positive affirmations again and again until I started to notice that it was helping me. </div>
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Through all these years there were moments I felt I was not making any progress. But that moment actually opened my eyes to something that I didn't see before: I developed that trust in myself to the point I could help myself overcome my anxiety. Of course it's far from perfect, but the more I practice, the more I realize it works. </div>
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<span style="text-align: justify;">I guess, this would be a little weird if I put my beauty favorites on my channel since my channel is all about mental health. But I should never forget about the things that make me happy as a girl. For me it would definitely be make-up, scin care, etc. So in this post I'm going to share some of my last favorites with you, not so much connected with mental health in general, but connected with my happiness in some way.</span></div>
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First things first. This month I am in love with skin care, and I absolutely love this massage bar from LUSH. It is their new invention and it does moisturize and make your skin smell amazing. It does take time to absorb though, since it consists of essential oils. This particular one smells like rose jam, and it is so therapeutic for me to use after my workout, for example. </div>
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Dry oils is a pretty cool invention. They do absorb faster then regular oils, and feel amazingly good on the skin. I did not want to buy an expensive one since it's my first time using dry on my face, but I'm absolutely in love with this one from L'Oreal. More than anything about it I love the sent. It's a great addition my skin care routine, and it's suitable for my oily skin as well, if we're talking about cold weather. </div>
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And the last item would be sheer make-up "Baby Glow" from Guerlain. This gives me a pretty light coverage when I don't want to wear a bunch of make-up on my face, making my face glowing. A little bit too much for my oily skin though:( But I absolutely love the scent of this (surprise) and I'll absolutely make use of it, applying powder of it. </div>
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Feeling low all the previous week, laying in my bed for hours and trying to fight the ruminating thoughts in my head have been a challenge, needless to say, all this routine took all life energy that I seemed to have in me weeks before and left me absolutely empty and lost...</div>
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I love going for walks and simply take pictures for my blog whenever I'm feeling low. Sometimes it's hard to stand up and go, but I must say, I feel proud that I managed to make myself go outside. Hopefully it will inspire you to do the same, or do anything that brings comfort and joy into your heart, no matter what's happening in your life. </div>
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<span style="text-align: justify;">There will be times you'll want to give up though. At times my anxiety is too hard to handle and I wish I could cut my head off in order not to think, but please, keep remembering, this time will pass. This is one of the most important things to remember: IT IS TEMPORARY. When you overcome it, you'll find yourself much stronger! Do not get scared of these times, they come and go. </span></div>
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I am the most impatient person on this planet. It bring me so much anxiety when I have to wait for something or someone. When I wanna say something and constantly interrupted, I just freak out. This does not only influence other people to certain extent, it, first of all, influences me! I guess I'm not only impatient with others, but also with myself. I have to admit, it just makes things even more complicated since it always gets back to oneself: you have to love yourself first, be patient with yourself, understand yourself first, etc. Since I became more aware of my emotions I am able to control them better and there is no certain technique for me that helps, because no matter what you do outside, the problem sits inside, and it's hard to solve it until you face it directly. I was thinking a lot about it, and, I guess, patience has a lot to do with acceptance: acceptance of others and yourself. Acceptance comes from understanding and understanding comes from wisdom, which itself comes from knowledge and experience. The line might be different, but I understand it this way. As long as you have a tension of not being able to wait you probably can't do other things, it is hard to concentrate, so the best thing you can do for yourself is to try to accept the fact that everything happens in it's own timing. I constantly repeat to myself that my impatience won't change a thing, I just have to wait, accept, keep calm. And these words meant nothing to me until I realized it completely. I get to understand things more by reading, thinking and meditating.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6544813323834797268.post-78851331614468278942015-02-01T21:16:00.004-08:002015-02-01T21:20:06.592-08:00WTTD 33 - Forgive yourself<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<b>Recently </b>I noticed it was hard for me to forgive myself for the decisions I've made in the past. I guess only they brought me to the point where are I am now: sometimes broken, desparately trying to strive for finding peace within. Sometimes my strength is just not enough, and I blame myself for that. I've been playing this game just as long as I've been playing it with my family. It's sometimes so easy to blame circumstances, blaming and yourself, being ashamed is the hardest. It feels like you are being torn apart by your own hands.</div>
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<b>This transformation</b> is very important for me, and I guess it's about time, not to only let go, but accept some things I chose to do because I though it was right. I didn't do it to hurt myself or ruin my life, all I did was because I thought it was right. I felt there was a way to deserve happiness. The more you suffer, the happier you'll become in the future, but you know, guys, it's a LIE. Life we sometimes tell ourselves making ourselves go through nightmares to "deserve" happiness.</div>
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<b>I am now the person</b> who does not use circumstances, my past, my family mistakes, and hopefully my own mistakes to justify my own unhappiness. That's what I'm working on, no matter what, I'm getting there.<br />
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<b><i>Currently I'm in a learning process</i></b>. I'm trying to apply the knowledge I received in my daily life. This time it's more about not being judgemental to others and accepting them just as they are. I feel like this is a great challenge, that can be accomplished gradually. Changes you are aiming for do not happen over a day, but if you stay commited to it, it will make your relationships with other people much better, and it's connected with happiness more than anything else. </div>
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I managed to find strength withing not to go to eat some junk food and cry over my weakness but actually went to swim and didn't cry at all. I thought it would not be a bad idea to try to stand strong and give me some extra "workout" to stand for what I'm aiming for. </div>
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If I give up every time I feel empty and weak, I'll probably never get to my goal. I just remembered in my head how much I want to heal from my anxiety, and yesterday I felt like a winner, not acting according to my "will". Eventually this is not what I want, I am aiming for peace and happiness, and I know, I can't move on with the same amount of strength if I keep giving up, when it gets tough. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6544813323834797268.post-5101432692481569272015-01-16T02:16:00.001-08:002015-01-16T02:16:34.046-08:00WTTD 9 - One positive thought away from happiness<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Today is my ninth day of transformation, if I count it right:) And I was thinking a lot about positivity and how much it influences on our lives. As soon as we start thinking negative, the energy that we have in our mind and body to live gets low, things seem to change around us: nothing makes us happy anymore and we might as well fall into depression or anxiety. </div>
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We let one single thought ruin our day, and never even think that basically we are only one positive thought away from happiness. All that we concentrate on is that negative that we create in our minds, because it's easier. Is it easier to live like that? Hell, no! </div>
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It strengthens us when we try to rebuild our way of thinking, day by day practicing positivity. As soon as you start to think negative and feel like you become weaker: let your mind stop. Awareness is the key here, but if you are aware but do nothing with this knowledge, it's useless. There is no point in thinking a negative thought over and over again. It won't change the situation anyway! To one negative thought try to make up at least one positive thought. Talk to yourself. There is nothing wrong with it. It's going to be awesome when it starts working in your life. </div>
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I feel like I talked about this a million times in my videos, but as for myself I still find it difficult to follow this idea of my happiness not depending on others, situation or circumstances in my life. I mean, obviously it does have an impact, but does it define my life as happy or unhappy? </div>
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Waiting for a phone call, getting upset cos my work can't be done in time or the way I want it to be done, blaming the weather, etc. - are just few reasons of my constant "unhappiness". Putting myself in so much stress over the things I can not control makes me vulnerable, leads to anxiety and depression. </div>
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I started to think about it from a little bit different perspective. And I hope this will play a huge part in my transformation process and will lead me closer to my goal - finding peace within. </div>
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All these 3 things might lead you to the most important skill: not to expect, or just simply ease your life:) I hope this is helpful!</div>
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Today is my third day of transformation... I feel am doing good, if not to count life stress and stuff like that. But I guess it will be always on the way, and the only thing we can do is to actually accept all what is happening and move on. Basically let go! </div>
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Through years I developed a habbit to cope with my problems by falling into the state where I don't want to do anything, where I feel as a victim, where I remember those moments of my past I felt the same. And I kept saying to myself: that's what I deserve! This time it's different. </div>
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This transformation process is about me learning to let go, learning to forgive, to get up again, to cope in a different way and to never give up. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6544813323834797268.post-11117951637812699882015-01-09T04:38:00.000-08:002015-01-09T07:29:32.366-08:00WTTD 1 - Learn to love your body<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Hey, guys, for those of you who is not familiar <b>WTTD</b> - is abbreviation for my <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ul85AhhOakM&list=PLtQM_Xb7eMVUQE3tYdH4J9CrIwT0AO_90" target="_blank">"Way to transformation"</a> series that I started more than a year ago on my channel (D simply means Day). Although when I started that series I had no idea what I put myself into, now I clearly get an idea of how it should be, though there will be mistakes on the way of course. </div>
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In this part of my blog and channel I want to share with you a year from my life, that will hopefully be one the most important years in my transformation process. Basically transformation here means becoming healthier, more intelligent, more emotionally stable and more spiritally grown. This will lead me close to my ultimate goal - becoming happier and stronger in my life and hopefully bringing joy to the life of people that I truly love and care about. </div>
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So I chose <b>4 aspects</b> of my life to transform this year to achieve my goal. One of them - my health. As some of you may know by now, I've been struggling with anxiety and depression for many years now. And from my experience, I paid the least attention to my body in general which plays a huge role in my healing. This year I'm going to make it different. Of course, I excercised and was trying to eat somewhat healthy. But my mental condition requires more effort in order for me to be able to live a better life in the future. I was always a strong believer though, that I should not deprive myself, but along with healthy eating have some reward meals that make me personally feel good. </div>
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The list might go on and on but we might stop right here for now, as it should be not too hard to include in my daily routine. </div>
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I'll share with you how it goes along the way, being completely honest. If you decide to join me or have any suggestions please comment below or leave me a private message.</div>
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<span style="text-align: justify;">As usually, we might search for the tips for our resolution list, desperately search for presents, decorate the house with all those fancy Christmas lights, or simply lay in our bed trying to figure out what to do first. </span></div>
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I feel like we see the world during these days in grey colours sometimes, because nothing seems to make us happy, only tired, maybe empty, lost or even depressed. But what if we try to look at it from a new perspective? What if we just try to enjoy those lights without thinking we have to hang them in our own house? And what if we don't take any resolutions for the next year, but basically just enjoy the moment of celebrating? That list of goals can be made any other time of the year. </div>
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I guess it's all about how you feel inside and how you perceive situations going on around you. You can choose to play a blame game forever of course, but would it actually change anything? </div>
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The secret is that no matter how hard you try to change things going on around you, the more exhausted and unhappy you become. It's not that you should never act or try to change something in your life to become a happier person, but it's just important to recognize that some things are just the way they are, they are not under your control, and you better be humble enough to accept that. </div>
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I don't regret any experience I've had so far, as each one of them made me the person I am today. Do I want to be somewhere else right now other than sitting in my room writing this blog? Sometimes, but from the other side I know I am here for a reason, and I am doing what I love the most - probably helping someone feel encouraged today. At least I like to believe so. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6544813323834797268.post-53479640615528850372014-11-20T00:24:00.001-08:002014-11-20T00:24:50.506-08:00Find your key to motivation when your past is weighing you down<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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There was time you could blame your family, your friends, teachers, etc. for who you have become, but the reality is that there is no use in blaming anyone, there is no use in trying to figure out whose fault it is, no use in being sorry for yourself without taking responsibility even for your feelings. </div>
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1. Live your past behind, stop blaming others and forgive everyone who has ever hurt you. Don't even think about it again;</div>
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I lived my life trying to put responsibility for my fear of loneliness on other people, my relatives, my boyfriend. I did it until I realized that it was all me, who made myself so jealous, envious, anxious and unhappy person I have become. And it was time to take responsibility for it...And I did...</div>
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I often feel like a child within me wants to hide. I hide from people I love and people I don't know, I am just scared they might hurt.</div>
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Sometimes I feel lonely cos I push people away and sometimes I feel like I need to stay alone for a moment to recharge. I have been building these walls around me for years and it seems like it's hard to break them although I really want to. </div>
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All the pain an anxiety it brings just turns into one tornado of depression, that follows me through life. I can't escape from it, it seems. </div>
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Feeling lonely is one the worst feelings I have ever felt in my life, and all I am going for is just to get rid of this fear to feel that way again. </div>
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I don't sit and cry over it, I keep moving on. And I love this quote: "Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life". </div>
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It brought up some really hard memories in my head and looking at the blade while even taking those pictures made me quite sad, as it seemed for a moment I was going through this again. When I am nervous I tend to smile or even laugh, no matter how hard it is. And what you could see in the video is somewhat the product of my life experience formed with words... Can I say I'm good at that? I don't know. </div>
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I know one thing: I am doing this for others, for my viewers, readers, people who need it, and it makes me incredibly happy. I am glad it is over now, as playing with a blade has never been my habit. When I get to know someone who is struggling with this, my heart starts racing. </div>
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It was just one-time experience which got stuck in my memory for a long time, and sharing it, I guess was necessary. It's not always about beautiful life. There is also pain we carry in our hearts, than on our body parts, body in general. </div>
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No matter what your addiction is, today we are not free from something that seems to help us to cope... Tomorrow we are free. I know that there are no words to describe how much I wanna help, and it won't probably change a thing. </div>
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Love,<br />
Anya</div>
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I have just read <b>"The Happiness Project"</b> by Gretchen Rubin, which will be in my monthly favourites for sure. I didn't know how much it would impact on my current life but it actually did. I decided to start <b>my own</b> <b>Happiness Project</b>. Of course it will not be that strict as I believe stress is something I don't need in my life right now, and if I am going to say: I will be "something" for the whole month, I am afraid, it would put some sort of pressure on my shoulders. </div>
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One of the most important things I want to change in myself is <b>I want to become more kind and positive</b>, since I tend to be mean and critical at times. Well, why lie? MOST OF THE TIMES! I have been using mean sarcastic jokes for all my life and getting rid of those will definitely be a challenge. I am not saying that joking is bad in general, I am just saying that sometimes things we say even as a joke can hurt others without us even noticing it. </div>
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I am also critical about things, and would like to change it. Some people think that speaking is the same as thinking, but I am a strong believer that we are what we speak more than what we think. The more negative we speak the more unhappy we become, as we let this negativity spread all over our entire life. </div>
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We change when we think differently, but we can only change our way of thinking by changing our actions. Speaking is a form of action. </div>
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Love, Anya</div>
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