The trip turned into a nice experience and all the images and everything you can find on my youtube channel. I just wanted to encourage you to act, to do things even if you are afraid or don't want to, but you need to do in order maybe to get a better future. Just get out your comfort zone and you'll see how big diiference it may bring into your life! If your situation is way more serious than mine, go to a specialist, talk to someone who can help, it is also doing something, and it is something you can be proud of.
I love you and always willing to help,