We're going to get through any obstacles!

These days have been complicated for me as I've been struggling with many inner problems I can't solve. It leads me to depression that I can't control. Sometimes it may happen in anyone's life. And there should not be any particular reason for that: you just feel down and lost. Lost is a good word to describe what I feel right now. Sometimes you feel like ever decision you've made in your life was just wrong. And it just doesn't feel right to live...

What do I do? First of all I know that there is nothing in this world that can brake me as I've been through a lot and I know that no matter how I feel inside now, good stuff might happen any other day. Or I just wake one day and all of the sudden my perception of all my problems changes! Happened a lot! 

Second: I try to keep myself busy, occupied, doing something. When you are down, it is very hard, believe it or not, I know, but just make yourself go and actually do something! Even if you don't see a point, keep it simple, just do! 

I'm currently working on my project of happiness as I am now reading "Project Happiness" by Gretchen Rubin, very inspiring book, I must say. I'll see what's gonna work out of that! No matter what is going to happen: remember not to ever give up! I believe it myself, and this is probably the only thing I truly believe in, and I build my life based on that rule!

No matter what is going to happen: remember not to ever give up!

Love,
Anya

There is a reason why you are here, and there is a reason for your experience

Driving today and practicing for my new video of monthly favourites I found myself extremely happy. As I move through this life trying to deal with all sort of different things, I find myself completely alone sometimes, but what makes me happy is that my experience is something I can share with you, guys. Without it would I be able to help anyone? Would I be able to get so much knowledge about things that lead to constant fear, desperation and sometimes... suicide. If you ever wonder why you exist on this planet, try not to concentrate too much on what people might think of you, but think of yourself first. Because there is a reason why you are here, and there is a reason for your experience. 

My good friend from youtube once sent me the picture you can see below. I can't explain what it meant to me, but it felt like it was not real, I was so happy! 

Every message counts. Even if you can help only one person, it explains all: why you are here. And believe it or not, your smile, your words have already made a difference in someone's life at least once. You are an important part of this huge world,where everyone is needed!

You are an important part of this huge world, where everyone is needed!

Love,

Anya

Bad news with no support, how to overcome?

It's hard when noone supports. I'm going through a very tough period in my life right now and I've come to realize how it is important to learn to deal with stuff alone. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer... I never wrote about it before, but I used to be engaged with a guy diagnosed with cancer... I worked at the cancer hospital for 4 years where we first met. I must say, I lost few of my good friends, and one, who was very special and close to my heart. Now it seems I have to go through this again, and I don't feel empty as I know all about cancer, I don't feel weak because I was kind of preparing for this for all these years, but I feel sort of lonely at times as my relationships with have never been supported, nor they are supported now, I have noone to talk about my feelings about cancer in general, how it influenced my life, and how I am going through all of this again inspite of me trying to run away from it... 

There is light behind the darkness!

I'm writting about this not to complain, in fact, this is the last you want to do in life. But let me tell you only one thing: you will always have you on your side. No matter what you are going through, you are your best support system, you are your best friend! It's not the right time to give up and say: I can't do this anymore, because as long as you open your eyes every morning, you can do this! Do not let your world shutter just because someone throws stones in it, it will stand still, no matter what!

Love,

Anya

Step out of your comfort zone

Sometimes you need to step out your comfort zone and actually do the first move in order to change your life. Why don't fear and anxiety still there with you? Maybe cos you are holding them pretty tight without letting them go? Sound crazy, but maybe it is the case. Sometimes it happens cos deep inside we feel empty and there are different kind of mixed feelings we are trying to avoid by creating some physical symptoms, to be exact, our body does it! If we ask ourself a question, if I let my fear go what than? Will I be able to go outside, talk to new people and actually enjoy life? The answer will be probably: NO, cos you fear because you are afraid of disappointment, you are afraid of others' opinion about you, you are afraid you are not good enough. And as long as you all those "afraid" you will not actually get rid of your fear! But how can you really stop being afraid of others' opinion by sitting at home? How can you build up confidence if you are just watching "reality" shows on tv where all seems perfect, you compare and you complain! Start changing already now, go ahead of your fear and do anything it takes to go out, if that's something you fear and this is keeping you away from being happy! Learn to love yourself and be confident by knowing other people, by accepting them as they are, by actually sending love, and you will see, it is not that scary at all. The more you practice, the better it will get, I promise. Just, please don't hide, like I did all these years, cos you'll surely regret this time. 

With love,
Your Anya

Few words about betrayal

What I have been thinking about before I filmed my last video was what I could actually speak about in order to help someone, in order to comfort the broken, at least to try... I thought the best was to talk about betrayal, cos it is something it's so hard to overcome by yourself, and it also can be hard to share it with someone even close to you. It is very personal and very painful subject. But I tried to put my thoughts in one video and hope it makes it a bit easier for you to deal with betrayal. Remember, that no matter what happens in your life, it is temporary and it is gonna go, but you have to work on yourself to heal the old wounds. I hope, words I managed to say will help you somehow and make you feel better. 

Always your friend,

Anya

6 tips for a happy life

Hey, guys, here are 6 tips for a happy life, that I managed to figure out through my own experience, hope these will be helpful for you!

1. Enjoy every single moment (even a simple one, like drinking a cup of tea/coffee in the morning or taking a bath) even when you are alone;

2. Set goals and do what it takes to achieve them. Don't think they are stupid or something. Everyone is different and has their own interests;

3. Try to see something positive in every situation even if it seems to be hard. Experience shows that things that seem to be pretty crappy now turn into something really amazing in the future;

4. Learn to forgive and not to keep anger inside;

5. Do something you enjoy as often as possible. If you didn't find it yet, then take your time and try out different things;

6. Start your day with a smile and end it with "thanks". 

Make these steps your habbit. It will be hard in the beginning but once you get used to it, you'll find yourself if not happy, then happier. 

Love you, guys,

Always yours,

Anya

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